I thought I'd take a moment to update you jurls on a few things in my world:
IUD: Still got it in and still think the hormone is making me a little nuts. My second IUD Margaret was a little longer than normal for moi, but barely there so that was a plus. There is a ten year IUD with no hormone that I might should have gone with, but, sadly, birth control is often a crap-shoot. I wish my uterus would just fall out.
Shrink: Previously I reported that the receptionist at my shrink's office denied me admittance even though I was having violent fantasies about hurting our IT people (who are perfectly lovely). Thanks to a couple of jurls who insisted I call Nancy directly, I managed to get back on Team Analysis! First appointment was last night and Nancy agreed I might be just a tad unbalanced. The good news is, I haven't lost my sense of humor about mental illness!
Doing things for me: I have continued to give myself small treats. Fresh flowers have become a weekly fixture. How can I deprive myself of $10 roses? I have also socialized with friends when I would have probably just hung out on my couch and I must say I've yet to wish I'd chosen the couch.
Husband: I'm trying a new approach with Husband and actually telling him what's going on with me. Who would have thought that mattered? I'm also trying to share things that I normally withhold for fear he will judge, mock, or criticize. For example, I keep this blog to myself even though he knows about it and surreptitiously reads it on occasion, but now when I write something I think will make him giggle or I get a comment that I'm proud of, I share it with him. I'm realizing I keep a lot of me to myself out of (all together now) fear.
Kids: Still keeping the T.V. off and Sam, though not at angel status yet, is no longer a demonic presence in our lives. Sometimes I cheat a bit with Dancing With the Stars because Sam dances to the music so I consider it exercise.
New Things: I'm considering a couple of new things that I'm not ready to share, but will once I make a decision. For now, just assume it's something fabulous and dramatic (no, not giving kids or Husband away!). I've even stumbled on a couple of new realizations about my emotional instability that I'll be writing about in the near future. I don't know if it's a curse or a blessing that at 36 I'm still making self-discoveries....probably both.